been up till 6 a.m. last night... or it would be this morning.
i know, some people think i'm crazy. maybe nearly. had been pretty shaken and disturbed. sigh... and to just really pray. and i poured out my heart to God.
and yes... i feel the strain... but i just want to praise God, for His love, for His grace, for His acceptance, for His wonders. He knows and sees what's in my heart, what's bothering my mind, the worries, the sadness, my dreams, my passion, my heart.
i can slowly start to smile again. just sit at the window sill (not that i have one), look out the window, see the wind blow into the trees and birds fly in the vast sky, sing a song of praise and thank Him.
continuing into the night, i have a brother that i can share and talk with and also minister to each other. my compatriote. go brother! and with loving godly people around, what more can you ask. indeed, i pray very much that God would bless them in their lives.
just before bathing, i was just reading about the heart in Max Lucado's 'A Love Worth Giving' lent to me by Melanie. about how we really have to guard the heart. and a really good illustration too. when you see a small fire in your house, you quickly douse it and put it out - anything but allow it. why? because you know the growth pattern of fire. and just like the fire in the heart, if left unchecked, can burst into a hungry flame and consume all that is consumable. for what is a flicker today, can turn into a blazing fire tomorrow.
and there is a solution.
'Trust the Lord and do good'(Psalm 37:1,3).
'Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.' (Proverbs 3:5-6)
read it slowly, word by word. and see the Lord.