pre - YCC Camp 09

i came back from OCF convention this afternoon and at 1pm, start work again. worked till 10pm today due to unfortunate circumstances at work. i'm doing my best at work.

the little blitz trip to OCF convention hasn't sink in yet. i guess due to the hectic-ness, i haven't got time to reflect much yet. i truly thank God for the brothers and sisters that i had and have around some rare times. met my older brothers and sisters and also the younger ones. for those that i didn't get to meet in malaysia, the last time i would have seen them was 3 years ago when i left.

i got to meet janice, my dear little sister who is a cili padi girl of faith. its been 3 years. i witnessed her start of her journey but i didn't get to see her continue grow cause i left already then. and i'm sure God worked in her great things back then and also for the future.

i got to meet arthur too, my housemate. also 3 years. he's truly grown to be a fine young man of faith. being a very real christian and just sharing of how God worked wonders in his life and plans.

i am very tired but my eyes and heart are awake with a little flame. by God's grace... TRULY by God's grace that i survive each day. i only have a little flame and God does the rest. its all a work of faith...

i just felt i need to write this down because though i was at OCF convention for just 1 night session, i saw the many generations of OCFers that God has been with and who are still faithful. i'm sure there are many more who couldn't make it.

YCC camp will be in a few hours time... preparing the last bits of stuff.. oh no! i haven't even packed yet... haha.. ah well.. a few minutes and i'll be done. i don't know what will happen in this camp of 46 people. its a small number but perhaps that is good. a 50/50 ratio of above 18 and below 18. we'll see how God works :) do keep me (the camp commander) and the camp in prayer.

OCF convention...

OCF convention, here i come!

in a last ditch and last desperate attempt, i have managed to be able to go for convention. OCF 50th convention. on the 9th, i will take halfday leave in the afternoon and will head down to melaka with ke bin. will stay over 1 night and return the next morning on the 10th where i will start work in the afternoon.

i know its crazy. its just one night on weds, and return on thurs and on fri, it'll be a trip to kampar for the YCC camp 2009.
but it is worth it.

i don't know who i'll re-meet back there again but then, let it be a surprise :) its very weird to explain it and i hope i don't offend anyone. it is a relief and encouragement to me in some ways. its like a tired soldier returning home. its been 3 years of persevering and fighting on and sacrificing... and now, returning 'home' in the company of my brothers and sisters in Christ whom i have shared lives with and whom i learned to love and trust in adelaide.

how has each other's lives been? how was your faith been? how has your journey been? how has your ministry been? i believe everyone have their story to tell... and it is very encouraging to each other as lives are shared and encouragement to persevere on wherever God has placed each of us.

i believe that there were many things God moulded and grew me, and there are also many things which were forgotten and i did not do because i had slowly grown afraid through time. still learning and growing...

working in faith...

attended chang hong and elaine's wedding and wedding dinner today. it was a wonderful and joyous occasion. came back, shower and cool down and back to preparation for tomorrow's MYF training. this time round on teamwork and leadership & vision.

i have people asking me about the state of MYF. i have to be frank to say that i don't know but there is lots to do. we cannot quantify results by the numbers that we have, and neither can we be complacent and be happy about the numbers and sit back in the comfort zone.

lots of people have been putting in the effort and trying to help. you know who you are. truly to be in a position i am in, it is pushing me further than i imagined. i put in lots of thought before and am putting in even more for MYF. i'm tired but remembering how other's have poured their time and life into me gives me strength to go on. i will pour in as well.

God, please help me. grant me wisdom to lead your sheep. these are Your people. what are you trying to teach me?

it is a work of faith. i will probably never see the fruits of it. it is all work done in faith for the future. i push and God moves. i may not know what to do but i will give it everything i got. i'm pouring everything that i've learnt to pass on to them. of course it is impossible to do it all in 2 sundays but at least there's a start.

impacted...

i know i just watched 'Fireproof' yesterday, and i did again today. parts of it. haih.. terrible.. still cried again...

it speaks of many messages i have had the hard time learning myself (and still learning) and now, want to see it happen in other's lives as well. the message of the movie speaks close to my heart.

realizations of God's love again, of sacrifice, of what love really is, of humility, of what it means to be a man of God and not what the world portrays, of what it means when God says,'husbands, love your wife as Christ loves the church', of commitment, of what relating means, of what waiting on God means, of healing of the heart. there's so much...

there are so many broken families everywhere. even if they're under the same roof, it can still be broken. so many broken people everywhere and most of the brokenness starts from home. the family is the first church that we must take care off before all others. pretty much everything starts from the family. i teach the youths and i see many with broken hearts. broken guys, broken girls. why do you think there is so much broken relationships everywhere? because we're all broken people.
yes, they and we hide it well. they and we try to find things to replace and cover it. sigh... pray for healing...

a verse for a tough week...

it has been a tough week. working wise, church wise, people wise, rest wise. but its a good journey. remembering my uni lessons, with God's help and guidance, i am determined to finish strong.

amidst all that, got a verse sms'ed from danny, my ex-housemate.
Col 1:17
'17 He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together.'
truly.

it was encouraging. it reminds me so much of uni days and sms'ing verses to each other as words of encouragement was so common; as if natural.

got a call from my best friend, Joel too. its quite an interesting way of friendship. he so busy, i so busy. its quite funny. we haven't met each other for so long, but he really is a friend i respect a lot & we share many same passion together. he calls me and i'm in meetings, and i call him back and he is in meetings and when he re-returns, i'm in meetings... its just weird.. till finally, fate brought the call together. it was great catching up.

was pretty worried about the training that i planned for MYF because i didn't have much time and couldn't put much effort into it. but i just worked at it cause all these effort is a work of faith and this is my heart for the MYFers. it is crucial because i will be away. today was training them about organizing events(games, programmes, camps) and also about confidence in God and yourself. next week, teamwork and leadership and vision.

next friday, we'll be watching a movie called 'Fireproof'. don't worry no spoilers. unfortunately, this is just one of the movies that made me cry. *sniff *sniff... no joke man... it takes a lot for a movie to make me cry.
its about marriage and broken relationships. this is one of the real-est movies i've ever seen on relationships. it is in accordance to the Bible and also the healing process in counselling books.