sister...

hmmmm....

things got out of hand a little. i wasn't controlling my days properly and may be losing focus. i need to take control and make sure that i'm controlling as in knowing my days and what i'm going through.

spiritually i thought i was alright, or should have been alright. but i wasn't. and thinking that healing will come quickly doesn't help. healing comes with time.

i got kind of worried. for my faith. prayer was hard and meaningless.
i feel snappy. and like a pent-up-anger type of feeling. i don't feel like talking to anyone. thinking that i had been pretty 'gentle' all the time, i kind of had been wanting to be direct (or maybe it was releasing the pent-ness) to anyone, straight to the point/face.

that's when i got even more worried. wondering in my own words, 'what the?'
sitting alone, trying to compose myself. i knew i had to take hold of purpose driven life, at least for a read and meditation. thank you to a sister, who came and talk to me. just sitting down like brother and sister, it is comforting. thank you for the advice and encouragement. i'll get back to purpose driven again...