a box in the heart...

the year is ending ... bla bla bla ....happy new year.. bla bla bla...

besides those above, i slowly realise that it IS going to be 2007. and i realise again, it has NOT been that far since i graduated. it was ONLY aug 13 since i came back. that makes IT 4 and a half months since i came back. and i have been working for 3 months now.

i'm still stuck in that phase of time really passing so slowly. i thought 4 years has passed. but no, it is still 2006! i watched the world cup! i sat those exams! i graduated!
i was thinking about it. it probably felt so long has passed because we were really that close in Adelaide. and with just some short moment of days or weeks passing, it felt like years has passed.

oh yeah... a box in the heart. i don't think i'm 'giving' that well to the youths. i do 'give' but i know myself that i have been reserved. i feel like i have this precious box in my heart that i have sealed and reinforced it with top security. what's that box? that is everything in Adelaide. i fear that if i open it up or give any away, i'd forget about it and it will all just fade into the wind and disappear.

even now that the year is passing ( in a few hours time), i get that little scared feeling that as the year starts, i start losing that precious box bit by bit as things are continuing on and also starting anew.

things are hard to let go.
and also to quote one of my beloved seniors wise words before i left, 'to move on, you've got to let go.'

have a blessed year ahead...

1 Corinthians 2:9
However, as it is written: "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him
[do look up this verse and read furthermore the passage]