Christmas?

nah.. didn't feel much actually this Christmas, as in those Christmas excitement.
maybe cause i've been busy doing stuff + working.

but one thing did encourage me most was a gift.
i got a planet shakers shirt. it kind of struck me a lot. it has like many folds but also show i think a lot.

1) it is a first gift from a church friend + youth cell group leader.
- a welcome back from my church friend. we grew up together in church. honestly, i didn't expect anything. so i got quite a shock. she thought of me when i was involved with the church musical and couldn't go for the planet shakers conference. + it was too far.
2) its expensive.
- waliau! i know the prices of these t-shirts man...
3) planet shakers is from Adelaide.
- i guess she didn't think of that (maybe she did) but it is a kick or a little taste of Adelaide. so, indirectly, a thought of Adelaide is given for my Christmas present.
4) i feel loved.

i am guilty for not getting anyone anything. just got a few stuff.

besides doing 'stuff', i was trying to focus and learn, more of strip everything down to its core to see Christmas as it really is. you know, we always hear those type of messages/emails titled, 'the true meaning of Christmas' or 'what is Christmas actually?'.
it would be my fault to bore myself (in a way) this Christmas but i wanted it. i wanted to see its wire-frame and foundations.
its just some sudden desire lately to strip everything down and see what it really is.

Jesus Christ. God. Emmanuel.