well, got some reactions about the 'putting aside' ministry and music ministry. so i better expand a little bit. that it is just setting aside. my heart and passion and my interests remains 100% the same (and expanding). but facing reality or more of the timeline, i would have to concentrate on my 'profession' as a financier and build on that. it is for the moment or how we call it, current plan (long-term is a different story). realization of a different and distinct path had caused me to think further about what are the implications of all these directions and happenings. its good to think deep (but not too much also) on how God may actually be planning according to His ways and promises.
i feel scared sometimes that i'm not fully committed or i lose energy in doing things and serving God. yet at the same time, i'm scared of like 'hogging' up everything or being in the limelight all the time and not giving others a chance to serve and shine. i suddenly have some inclination to 'hate' limelight and not want to go there, unless needed. yet i want to serve and give everything. peculiar. but of course, serving is not a matter of what we are comfortable in. get out of your 'comfort zone'!
(i admit i have to force myself to meet new people. i'm shy by nature. really. at times i'm just shy or thinking of myself and being too lazy)
anyways, i cannot believe i'm cracking my head to see what is there to write upon.
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