press 'Pause'...

i post with a purpose, be it serious or for lame-ness.
but i don't feel so good lately.

so, i had to press the pause button some time last week.
how long the pause is? i don't know.
i'll post when i'm better/alright.

sorry. i'm human.

God's faithfulness...

it is hard to see God's faithfulness.
i try to. sometimes i see, sometimes i don't. i think its many times i don't, especially with all the noise in my life that i can't avoid.

but the Bible speaks too.
God's faithfulness is there even if we can't see it.
we'll never know the extent of His faithfulness and love.

' Know therefore that the Lord your God is God; He is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep His commands'.
Deuteronomy 7:9

wounded spirit?

it was an interesting week.
i was already tired after the outing. and monday night had no electricity and so no fan and all the mosquitoes are just having a lovely time.
i = no sleep.
work = i also dunno how i got through it. i had to really save energy wherever i could.

and on tuesday i got an sms from chok that it was yvonne's birthday. so i called at night and after the call which ended late, this time i really thought i was going to faint the next morning.
compared to other nights with about 7 hours sleep, i had 6 this time.

but i was alright the whole day. feeling very much better. even my colleague said i look better. and i was thinking back what happened and i narrowed it down to the above.

maybe physically i was tired, but my spirit kept me going. and while having to walk the journey alone more often, it is obviously not good news and so i feel the physical effect more.

it refreshed my spirit more that i got to talk to someone who is dear to me. and of course things and times have changed so much since 2004 which makes it tough to keep in contact often. and emails from danny was refreshing too; like a first aid; a thirst-quencher.

2 Cor 4:16-18

16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

for the rest of the week, i was able to witness more to my colleagues and the company's annual dinner on saturday at Sunway.
played bowling with my colleagues later and injured my right hand after 5 frames. i had to bowl with my left for the rest of the 1 and a half games. of course the scores were bad.

sunday = teaching sunday school. and cleaning the house. i decided to do a clean sweep of my room to find a red tie, a church library book, and a camera cable. i knew they were somewhere in my room. and with not a single thing left unturned, i found all 3 of it. saved me money in all 3 areas.

what will the rest of this week give me? we'll see.... :)

literature?

for my masters in literature friend in GCF.

according to the internet:
Students in a Harvard English 101 class were asked to write a concise essay containing for elements: religion, royalty, sex and mystery.

the only A+ in the class read:
"My God," said the Queen, " I'm pregnant! I wonder who did it."

tired ? Youth Outing?

this week got me stumped and puzzled a bit. i was feeling very tired throughout. you know those advertisments for Yosmeishu or some energy revitalizing drink? my colleagues say i look like the 'before drinking the yomeishu' state.
but i keep saying, just push harder. things like this happens and i must just push through it.

i try to search and find out what could have caused such tiredness. i had enough sleep. i didn't exercise in the week. or maybe its because i didn't exercise that i feel tired. huh?
last sunday, i played badminton so that KOed me some bit. on monday, had GCF Headstart meeting and would have pushed my body more. and the rest of the days was neutral.
so what i think could have happened was a combination of 'moves' that i did that hit my body harder and so had its effects and made recuperation longer.
instead of a 'stretch and rest, stretch and rest' , i did a 'stretch, stretch, rest , and no choice had to rest on. '

so i think if that's the cause, i'll avoid such combinations in the future.
so this week tired me out. but saturday was the Youth Outing. i nearly didn't go but i pushed myself. how many times have i given excuses and so missed out on many exciting things?
it turned out great.
jungle trekking and paintball.

jingle trekking had its dangers. not the leeches lah but more of the slippery slopes. we had the form 1's which have not shoot up yet so their reach of legs are shorter. but it was great that the stronger ones were helping each other. and most gladly of all, no one was seriously injured except a few cuts here and there.

we had an elimination round to the finals for paintball. 8 in a team. my team comprised the um.. older people? hahaha... the older youth leaders. so we had to use our brains against the youths.
there were the 'ruthless' youths which looked scary. i couldn't believe my team won.
so okay, a slight increase in the ego... haha...
i'm glad i got to know the youths much better, now that they also identify me as 'Owen' for my blue striped jersey.

a good week? i'll have to make sure i wrap it up with a good night's sleep to make it a good week.
okayyy... time to go for the 6pm service. i'm playing the organ.

oh the sky....

i was glad to be able to see a full moon. so bright. one nice circle among the clouds and mountains.

and it made me wonder, oh man... how long has it been since i've seen the sky? or even had a good look at the sky in daylight?
no joke man...
don't talk about lunch time. its too bright to look up in the sky plus i'm always crossing roads.

at least i still have mountains to look at at dawn and maybe a little bit at dusk.
getting to see the sky and lots of trees in adelaide is definitely a blessing. i miss it.