Find us Faithful...

now with each day preparing for work, lots of emotions lah. its twisting my mind. i could still hold on when i had nothing to do. but now with work going to start, i know i have to finally let go to move on. if not, low performance in work and get fired lah.

tidying up my room, packing up the belongings in adelaide. okay... its one month plus... but i was 3 weeks in singapore plus i procrastinated as well. it was hard to pack and close it away. i didn't want to. i want my adelaide stuff lying everywhere around me. i try lah, but my mother will, of course... k_ll me.

the times in OCF... hmm... how do i say this? will always be in my heart. my journey in uni where God showed Himself more, through the highest and the lowest times.

some time earlier in the middle of sem 1 '06, i came across this song that i had in my comp, Find Us Faithful. an old song BUT it was pretty inspiring. it reminded me a lot of OCF. i remember when i just joined. and learning about ownership. listening to stories of the past OCFers and what they've done. and bleeding and sweating for OCF. being broken down. being moulded. holding each other by a thread to run on. building the foundation with joanne, gillian and richard to prepare for EXCO. richard always says, let it echo into eternity.
and people come and go. that's the cycle of OCF.

i would not say i was always at my best. i always wonder whether i was faithful to God and did i do enough in my capacity then? i hope i didn't miss out anything He wanted to teach me.

in my insecurities, questions and regrets, i hear God whispers quietly, 'My timing is perfect. whether you have done enough or not in human terms, I have planned that and am in total control. I see. not humans see. in what you did and did not do, I am doing the final measure.'

Find Us Faithful
by Steve Green

v1
We're pilgrims on the journey
Of the narrow road
And those who've gone before us line the way
Cheering on the faithful, encouraging the weary
Their lives a stirring testament to God's sustaining grace

v2
Surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses
Let us run the race not only for the prize
But as those who've gone before us
Let us leave to those behind us
The heritage of faithfulness
Passed on through godly lives

chorus:
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful
May the fire of our devotion light their way
May the footprints that we leave
Lead them to believe
And the lives we live inspire them to obey
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful

v3
After all our hopes and dreams have come and gone
And our children sift through all we've left behind
May the clues that they discover
And the memories they uncover
Become the light that leads them
To the road we each must find