you may be wondering why i didn't post for so long. the previous post would have explained it.
if i were to have typed, the post would not have been good.
i struggle.
it is hard.
its been a long journey.
but i sat for the papers, hoping for the best.
one thing sure was that i was really drained. exhausted. it was not easy to fight through everything. i don't want to give up. i won't give up. things have been stupidly disappointing.
each night, it is mind games, keeping lies and bad thoughts away, trying to focus on God. and to follow Him.
in the midst of it all, God placed good people around me. having brothers and sisters who call me up when they are in convention and AGM. handy, yvonne, shelley, celine, elaine, edward, sarah, audrey, eileen, hmm... can't remember a few more... it is wonderful.
even after the whole ordeal, i still have no idea how or why or what. i may feel much better in some ways, but that does not take away what is really happening. trusting God, is tough. you need God's spirit. God's peace. God's strength. prayer. faith.
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