oh man...

oh man... i'm losing self-discipline. i'm not focusing.
i realise i can still see reality but am not taking any action. realising this, i'm not sure whether i'll take action also. no, wait, now that i'm typing it on the blog, i should be taking action. i will take action. i need some quiet time to myself. maybe i need more quiet time to myself. to think and pray.

i have to admit that i didn't think much about God, except maybe a few hours. i need to go back. to the 'quiet place'.

i was taught these verses by richard some time ago. and i remember how he talked about how we perform when we are serving God, even living our life. we may be strong in some areas, but weak at others. we're not perfect. we will make mistakes in our ministry.

but do we work as a farmer, have the spirit of an athelete and the discipline of a soldier? it was a reflection for me, to nurture and build up these characteristics for my journey and future.

2 Timothy 2:1-7

1 As for you, my son, be strong through the grace that is ours in union with Christ Jesus. 2 Take the teachings that you heard me proclaim in the presence of many witnesses, and entrust them to reliable people, who will be able to teach others also. 3 Take your part in suffering, as a loyal soldier of Christ Jesus.

4 A soldier on active duty wants to please his commanding officer and so does not get mixed up in the affairs of civilian life. 5 An athlete who runs in a race cannot win the prize unless he obeys the rules. 6 The farmer who has done the hard work should have the first share of the harvest.

7 Think about what I am saying, because the Lord will enable you to understand it all.

R.I.

do you all wanna know a secret?
well, i can't tell you cause its a secret.

nope. no one hacked into my blog.
just some random irritation to share to you all.

holidays...

ironically, it is in the holidays that we are tested and in a way, facing more 'hardships'.

being in adelaide and ocf teaches me a lot. i enjoy the fellowship and the warmth being in the family of God. i will always talk of the memories and lessons that i've learnt. yet, after all of those, i made sure i return to reality. of the world we are living in. people (christians and non-christians alike) will always frust us off or 'surprise' us. christians (or 'christians') will surprise us even more with their hypocritic attitudes whether in church or workplace.

that is the world we are living in. OCF has a good environment to grow and learn. but i have to say that the types of 'times' that we face when we return home during the holidays are good in a way. i'm not saying i like it but we must try to see beyond. it would be frustrating, depressing and discouraging and some may get it worse.

but it is those times that we will be facing for the rest of our lives after a few years of our uni life. this little break amidst our uni years will surprise us. but bring these 'surprises' back to adelaide to share and seek advice from the elder ones.

for those who have gone back before, yeah, they know. the tendency to fall back is quite high because we are not in our surroundings in adelaide. this is a test of how genuine is our changes and things we learnt in adelaide. are we still implementing them in our hometowns? do we email or msn each other to 'check up', support and encourage each other? do we still open the bible and pray?

i do miss the fellowship and am looking forward to seeing everyone in adelaide again. its about a month left before returning. continue living for God and being a witness to those around you.

meeting...

had a gathering of OCFers at my house today. so nice. had kenneth kwan, priscilla, esther, paul, alfred, addielle and elvin. lydia, sharon wong and evelyn also nearly came. but couldn't. its ok...

it was really great. had a meal. then flip some channels on TV (some chinese series with fan wong) while talking to each other.
got to talk together with kenneth and elvin for some while. but really hoped i could talk more to learn from them and their experience. it was later that i realised, kenneth would not know a few cause he left before they came. then it dawned upon me even more, that i was in adelaide already to see him. and that was long ago. 2003!

and kenneth also reminded me again, that that is how the cycle of OCF is. people come and people go. haha... i remember telling that to many. dang.. (must not be dinosaur, must not be dinosaur). haha...

it was a long way since i came in '03. i think i forgot some lessons that i had learnt. i better make the effort to recap.