its a big pain with your body clock being the opposite. i'm officially a night guard, night owl, um... whatever else. and trying hard to switch it too. i'm awake from 2 a.m. to 8 a.m. then i knock out till 1 pm. and its actually still not enough sleep. cialat man. then i'll wake up, rush to uni, come back, dead tired... at about 6pm. then sleep about 2 hours. and the cycle goes again. at least work is still done.
in total, have been negating the hours of sleep trying to work hard. its a bad strategy. got to avoid that. stress attacks are coming back again. and been asking God to protect my mind. and also i have to ensure i get enough rest. God need to heal my body as well.
amidst my tumbling and aimless drifting here and there trying to follow my schedule, God has been there. i know. but i didn't take the time to stop and see. just a 30 seconds here and there and my mind shift to something else, or shifts to numbness. sigh... God i'm sorry. i didn't take the time to stop or try to stop. i'm trying to do well. i need to force myself. but its changing things that i do not want to change. i'm starting to lose patience and tolerance and godly thinking.
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