the time at lincoln has ended.
i see one of the last of my brothers in college leave. edward. for the first time, i realise, i'm alone now. there is no one to watch over me in case i go wrong. there is no one i can go to when i feel alone or sad or when i'm stressed. there's no room that i can go to now. there's no one i can go to for guidance. elvin and ee leon left, it wasn't so bad. now edward leaves. i really thank God for the people that He has placed around me and to forgive me if i took them for granted. i will really really miss him. i'm going to be crying like gillian already. i have seen this happen before for kenneth kwan and nickson and soke ling. but now i really feel the full force of it. someone who i have grew up with for 2 years in college.
college is so quiet now. people have left. OCFers have left also. the flights are all calling. right now, there are only 'leftovers' in college. the last few to leave. i see things ending for the year. i see my elder friends leaving. salvaging lots of stuff.
i will really miss college. the people. the friends. the guidance. the community. there is every side to it. i have learnt so much in lincoln. laughed, cried, played, celebrated birthday's, performed, played tricks, soccer, ping pong, foosball, pool, taught, guided, advised, helped, shared.
but times will change. as much as i don't like it, this is how it is. this is how OCF is. and how being overseas is. as much as there is the guidance, impact and happiness, there are also the struggles, pains and parting.
i will miss edward. i am missing edward. i miss my brother.
1 comment:
well, no doubt things does change lah. it's either for the better or for the worse.
but do keep in mind; when somethings leave us, other things will come and fill that void, once occupied. new things. smile always!
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