getting it...

well, i got a job. i got the job i applied to.
with my not so good grades, i just apply.
i sat through the interview. and with questions, they attack. quite fierce at times.
i don't deny that at the final interviews, i just feel that i'm not good enough. i know i can say i am/was confident in God. but after the final interviews pass, thoughts just come into my mind. who am i kidding? if i'm in the interviewers position, i would have weeded myself out long time ago.

i can 'see' God. How else could i have gotten the job? fluke?
of course we have to put our effort in also and prepare and all that. but even after all that, that 'special' touch is needed.

i was thinking also, if i had super good grades, i may just sit through all the interviews and when i get the job, oh its because of the grades. it'll surely come. i'll become cocky and get just pass off 'getting the job' as some event. (i'm sure God knows)

but now, i humbly say again and again, it's God's grace, faithfulness and blessings.