yup...

yup, my mother is here. that explains the lesser typing but also cause exams are really near. so sorry for not typing much. exams on the 7th, 9th and 11th. do pray for me! [exam period is from the 5th to 19th Nov]

i have to say that at times, i just crumble (yes, strong Christians do crumble). at times i feel very discouraged and as if there is no hope. i pray really hard for protection of the mind and for strength. many times i find myself crying out to God, 'Lord, help me believe that You will bring me through.' help me to place more confidence in You, Lord. one thing i didn't do though was open up and look in the bible whenever any bad thoughts come.

now, i understand even more the heaviness that there is to push out of the mental barrier, break the bondage and pick yourself up. i really understand now, how come it can be a test and how the test can be a great and heavy proof of the chaff being burned away to reveal the true character, and then the refining of the silver until it reflects the Refiner's image.
sigh... i really respect those that have gone through such tests before and stood firm faithfully.

anyway, i was reading from Billy Graham's book, about fear. and there was an old saying,

'Fear knocked.
Faith answered.
No one was there.'

P.S. Handy's birthday today. his 21st. OCFers pinned him down and gave a nice body decoration. i owe him a present. i promise i'll get it but i'd rather it be something that you need. what you need for missions in the future?