in 3 hours time i will be leaving for the airport. i have to try and get some sleep. i had trouble sleeping for the past 2 nights due to anxiety. the real thing is coming now. the enormity of it all seems daunting. 2 months and going in alone. things like, is the prayer that i ask of really going to work and protect me? is it possible to manage alone? fear, uncertainty, anxiety.
but with the many encouragements and prayers, i must continue to walk in faith and know that these prayers are moving around me.
i am really thankful for the support and it means a lot to me.
Saturday, January 09, 2010
Thursday, January 07, 2010
Monday, January 04, 2010
a step of faith... missions...
i have stopped my work because i will be in sarawak for 2 months (Jan 9th till Mar 2nd). it was time to move on from my job and i thought why not use this little break to go for missions when i still can. besides, what is 2 months compared to 30 years of working in the future?
it is for missions and helping to improve lives. it was a tough decision and it is an act of faith because there is no job waiting when i return and that, i have to leave it to God. it was not just an instant emotional heart pulling decision. the intention and move was dwelt upon for 1 year and by september 09, i decided. it was scary at first, and i did 'chicken out'. and then after 3 more weeks of extra prayer and R&D, i decided. i calculated the costs and its not just monetary only.
many people ask me why do this? when i was in uni, i was taught that at least once in your working life, take the time to go for missions. this is because it is in missions that our eyes are opened and see how God has been blessing us in our current places and also realign our focus and life journey again. i may go there to teach or train or give, but its usually they, in their lives, teaching and giving back to me more.
of course it doesn't have to be as long as 1 or 2 months. it is not easy to commit 1-2 months. there are mission trips that are 1 week. (FYI: short-term missions = 1 year).
i will be going in alone and most importantly, will need your prayers. a missionary is only the physical face of the mission field but behind every missionary is a team of prayer warriors praying and interceding for the missionary in the field. it is an act of calling out to God for His protection and His grace in a place where anything can happen. there is no line for communication except through a satellite phone. which is what makes this post more important.
due to information security reasons, i cannot explain with more details on the public domain. but for further details, do drop me an email or a call and i'll gladly share.
it is for missions and helping to improve lives. it was a tough decision and it is an act of faith because there is no job waiting when i return and that, i have to leave it to God. it was not just an instant emotional heart pulling decision. the intention and move was dwelt upon for 1 year and by september 09, i decided. it was scary at first, and i did 'chicken out'. and then after 3 more weeks of extra prayer and R&D, i decided. i calculated the costs and its not just monetary only.
many people ask me why do this? when i was in uni, i was taught that at least once in your working life, take the time to go for missions. this is because it is in missions that our eyes are opened and see how God has been blessing us in our current places and also realign our focus and life journey again. i may go there to teach or train or give, but its usually they, in their lives, teaching and giving back to me more.
of course it doesn't have to be as long as 1 or 2 months. it is not easy to commit 1-2 months. there are mission trips that are 1 week. (FYI: short-term missions = 1 year).
i will be going in alone and most importantly, will need your prayers. a missionary is only the physical face of the mission field but behind every missionary is a team of prayer warriors praying and interceding for the missionary in the field. it is an act of calling out to God for His protection and His grace in a place where anything can happen. there is no line for communication except through a satellite phone. which is what makes this post more important.
due to information security reasons, i cannot explain with more details on the public domain. but for further details, do drop me an email or a call and i'll gladly share.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
3 years and 3 months...
3 years and 3 months was my duration at my workplace. it was my first job and i learnt a lot there and progressed a lot in my area. technically now, i've been well built. the banking industry is an interesting industry.
i had my last day of work on dec 22nd. it was a pretty tough ending. late nights, lots of things to tie up, lots of things to prepare. due to unfortunate circumstances at work, i couldn't do some things that i wanted to do which would help my colleagues have a faster way of doing their work. but oh well...
on the last day, was still working late cause had lots of things to do with regards to my portfolio. my mother was wondering what am i 'foolishly' doing. no one stays late towards the end of their tenure. i believe it is up for debate and how we should be reacting and working is also very subjective and depending on many factors.
i know that i have no obligation to stay late towards the end of my tenure and i have every right to leave at 5.45pm. somehow, i just feel that that is where it makes the difference. putting these last run of effort is working beyond my call of duty and anyone knows it. i know my colleagues will be in for a tough time if i do not do what i can and help what i could. what makes a good worker?
the people in the department made the place a good working place. of course, tensions and arguments exist but having an age range of about 10 years aids a lot in terms of communication and the definition of fun. i miss my colleagues.
well, old doors will have to be closed so that new doors can open.
why resign? to come in future writings...
i had my last day of work on dec 22nd. it was a pretty tough ending. late nights, lots of things to tie up, lots of things to prepare. due to unfortunate circumstances at work, i couldn't do some things that i wanted to do which would help my colleagues have a faster way of doing their work. but oh well...
on the last day, was still working late cause had lots of things to do with regards to my portfolio. my mother was wondering what am i 'foolishly' doing. no one stays late towards the end of their tenure. i believe it is up for debate and how we should be reacting and working is also very subjective and depending on many factors.
i know that i have no obligation to stay late towards the end of my tenure and i have every right to leave at 5.45pm. somehow, i just feel that that is where it makes the difference. putting these last run of effort is working beyond my call of duty and anyone knows it. i know my colleagues will be in for a tough time if i do not do what i can and help what i could. what makes a good worker?
the people in the department made the place a good working place. of course, tensions and arguments exist but having an age range of about 10 years aids a lot in terms of communication and the definition of fun. i miss my colleagues.
well, old doors will have to be closed so that new doors can open.
why resign? to come in future writings...
Sunday, December 20, 2009
YCC Camp 09...
it was pretty hectic schedule and it was only after the camp that i could reflect on what has happened.
earlier as i was praying for the camp, God did speak to me in a way that i feel comforted even though the numbers were only 46 and that sometimes, things has to be this way for the best to come out. well, i wasn't too sure. but okay, if You say so.
so the camp went ahead. with a little delay in Selayang because the bus was tilting to the left, everything went smoothly. reached Gua Tempurung within the buffer time provided. it was a simple climb but also good exposure. each day had its individual highlights.
saturday was a group dynamics and steamboat dinner. i didn't know Grand Kampar Hotel was famous for its steamboat dinner. sunday was the movie 'Guardian' in the afternoon and a Spiritual Spa in the night.
there was ample free time to encourage fellowship and to mingle around. most of the free time was spent in the pool or playing in each others rooms. or some sleeping. segregation will always be there at first but by the 3rd day, people were warming up to each other. and of course, the usual feeling on the 4th day, when people finally are comfortable and 'click' with each other and its time to go home...
one thing that i was really glad was that the elder youth/young adults that came for the camp. i shared with them what God showed me and encouraged them to just be themselves and share their lives with the youths. i believe very much that real sharing from real lives from real hearts of real people is precious.
our camp speaker, Mr. Selvaraj shared for 3 sessions about the Mindset, Maturity and Making Christ tangible. the way he delivered his message about God was pretty practical i would say and very real to what's happening with us and around us. it was a good ground for discussion and sharing. devotion was done as a group. workshops were done with some group dynamics to further strengthen the understanding of the questions before discussion. worship was just a keyboard, guitar and bass guitar but it was true and full of meaning.
that was the advantage of a 50/50 ratio of above 20 and under 20. it is through the sharing of lives where we learn to see God in each of our lives and also how to live as a follower and disciple of Christ. whether lives were impacted or not, i do not know. it's all a work of faith for God.
of course, there are things to tidy up and to learn from. it would be a bit hard and also a shock for me to be managing or leading people older than me. but i am grateful for the support that i had in so many forms that greatly contributed to the DNA of the camp.
there is a little surprise coming up at church but it has to be kept silent for now.
earlier as i was praying for the camp, God did speak to me in a way that i feel comforted even though the numbers were only 46 and that sometimes, things has to be this way for the best to come out. well, i wasn't too sure. but okay, if You say so.
so the camp went ahead. with a little delay in Selayang because the bus was tilting to the left, everything went smoothly. reached Gua Tempurung within the buffer time provided. it was a simple climb but also good exposure. each day had its individual highlights.
saturday was a group dynamics and steamboat dinner. i didn't know Grand Kampar Hotel was famous for its steamboat dinner. sunday was the movie 'Guardian' in the afternoon and a Spiritual Spa in the night.
there was ample free time to encourage fellowship and to mingle around. most of the free time was spent in the pool or playing in each others rooms. or some sleeping. segregation will always be there at first but by the 3rd day, people were warming up to each other. and of course, the usual feeling on the 4th day, when people finally are comfortable and 'click' with each other and its time to go home...
one thing that i was really glad was that the elder youth/young adults that came for the camp. i shared with them what God showed me and encouraged them to just be themselves and share their lives with the youths. i believe very much that real sharing from real lives from real hearts of real people is precious.
our camp speaker, Mr. Selvaraj shared for 3 sessions about the Mindset, Maturity and Making Christ tangible. the way he delivered his message about God was pretty practical i would say and very real to what's happening with us and around us. it was a good ground for discussion and sharing. devotion was done as a group. workshops were done with some group dynamics to further strengthen the understanding of the questions before discussion. worship was just a keyboard, guitar and bass guitar but it was true and full of meaning.
that was the advantage of a 50/50 ratio of above 20 and under 20. it is through the sharing of lives where we learn to see God in each of our lives and also how to live as a follower and disciple of Christ. whether lives were impacted or not, i do not know. it's all a work of faith for God.
of course, there are things to tidy up and to learn from. it would be a bit hard and also a shock for me to be managing or leading people older than me. but i am grateful for the support that i had in so many forms that greatly contributed to the DNA of the camp.
there is a little surprise coming up at church but it has to be kept silent for now.
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