got to sort out my life...

a little delay...

besides being busy, it gets hard a bit to type things down and post because it would be related to people who are in church or related to church. so posting something would be difficult because even if i speak generally, it may be able to be related back to something that currently happened.

technically, nothing is wrong and speaking in general should be safe. but then again, have to avoid and prevent any possibility of trouble. by the time it is 'safe', i kind of forgotten or lost the mood to type...

And I Thank You, Lord...

One of the rare songs that is about trials (what more thanking God for it...) and a confession of our human nature where we depend on ourselves and make decisions and choices to serve ourselves than to serve God or be obedient to God. 

a song of perseverance, trials and test of faith, learning and growing instead of harbouring bitterness and hurt, humble confession of our human nature.

God is at the very end of our journey.

take time to ponder on the lyrics...

And I Thank You Lord

Copyright 1972 by Lexicon Music, Inc

And I thank you, Lord,
for the trials that come my way.
In that way I can grow each day
as I let you lead,
And thank you, Lord,
for the patience those trials bring.
In that process of growing,
I can learn to care.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.And I thank you, Lord,
with each trial I feel inside,
that you're there to help,
lead and guide me away from wrong.
'Cause you promised, Lord,
that with every testing,
that your way of escaping is easier to bear.

But it goes against the way
I am to put my human nature down
and let the Spirit take control of all I do.

'Cause when those trials come,
my human nature shouts the thing to do;
and God's soft prompting
can be easily ignored.

And I thank you, Lord,
for the victory that growing brings.
In surrender of everything
life is so worth while.
And I thank you, Lord,
that when everything's put in place,
out in front I can see your face,
and it's there you belong.

how did october fly by?

how did it fly by?
i have no idea.
like a whirlwind.

i have to open up google calendar. looking at it, i can see how it flew by. a non-stop action month plus a 'bonus' of assignments to hand up. it really pushes things. but praise God for helping to go through.

preparation work increases because it is not just about the structures but it is also about the people. structures are of no use if there is no purpose or if the people do not understand and know the purpose. we are very familiar with the term 'seek and ask God for guidance and direction'. and its no easy task to be doing so or remembering so with so many deadlines...

a dream with full senses... weird...

had a dream that i got a car accident..
i was driving on a familiar highway. i had the viewpoint from the driver, saw the car going up the flyover, then hit a rough patch of road, lost control, the car went high up. had the slow-mo feeling of dying as the car was in the air, with panic and horror shock at the same time.

my whole body felt it. the heart and mind felt it, knowing that the point of death is coming, and i woke up. but it was more like body woke up because of a sudden jolt. my body was in shock and in a state of heightened senses.

i wonder whether that's the feeling... what does that dream mean?